It was an amazing catching up with some of my #KoB friends, Lexelle, April, Larry, Pheobe and Larry. Of course there are MANY MANY more but for reasons of conflict and as well as limited seating space, and as well as harder to truly catch up with such a huge group.
I think the last time most of us saw each other, in particularly for me, was a good 7 years easily. How have we grown
Again as I sat chatting with them, the more I felt such a huge glaring gap from them. Discounting the fact that I am the only gay person in a sea of straight people, I felt a sudden pang of jealousy and anger for the way they were able to carry forth their love to the next level, that of marriage. In Singapore, gay sex isn't legal, much less gay marriage. As I looked at Lexelle's kids(yes she brought them!!), as I listened to them talk about their kids, I just felt alone.
Theirs is a path I would never be able to walk. The gay marriage thing might not happen in my lifetime in Singapore. Hell the repeal of 377A might not even happen in my lifetime! I felt a sense of rage that the powers not yet above has denied us of this basic human right. I might not believe in the concept of marriage personally, but I would like the option of walking down the aisle! And others would want to!
I am fortunate... very very fortunate actually, to be surrounded by my straight friends who know and accepted me for who I am. I never had to hide myself like majority of my gay peers. Early in our association, there was one slightly homophobic guy in our group, and he was swiftly reprimand and well scolded by the straight GUYS. Yes I was very surprised at that time that it was the guys who came to my "defense" though now in hindsight I know that it was because I was already part of their "brotherhood", regardless of which sex I am attracted to. My merry band of brothers, Bethie, Bearbear, Stingray, Earlgrey, Larry, Weak, Uryll, Rulakha, Pigeon, Perry and others whom I can't remember offhand now. My sisters, offered unconditional love and support constantly through my dark times, Lexelle, April, Pheobe, Colette and shervon Many many more KoBians!
- Current Mood:Poignant
- Current Music:Whitney Houston & Mariah Carey - When You Believe