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Owls

Dark Phoenix



Our species has always been largely a diurnal one, though larks and owls are not that uncommon either. What I don't get is the always negative bearing down on owls. Larks seldom ever get it. In fact they are most often praised! Owls on the hand, gets bitched, condemned, and generally the black "cat" of the flock.


I have always been an Owl since as long as I can remember. My mum used to make me go to sleep at 9 when I was a kid, which I hated because I can't sleep! I would be pacing in my room in the dark, gazing UNDERNEATH the room door watching the tv lights OR... because my room faces the corridor, read books by my bed using the corridor lights! I would be doing all these until I feel sleepy because of boredom, and not because I really am sleepy.

The huge drawback of being an Owl when practically whole of society is diurnal is really exhaustion. I can't sleep in the night no matter what. I force myself to sleep when it is a working weekday at the earliest... by 2am. I usually wake up at 7, so suffice to say I don't really have enough sleep since I don't exactly fall right into slumber at 2 sharp. Mornings are always hell for me, and I'm always usually the grumpiest, slowest and irritable at that time. I don't even have appetite for anything and I hate eating anything when I wake up.



By after lunch and around the traditional hours of tea, I am usually cranky and sleepy and I will swear to every deity that I will sleep early when I get back home. Guess what?

NEVER HAPPENS.

No matter how tired I am in the day, by 10pm onwards I will just start to get more and more energetic and alert and AWAKE. It's no co-incidence also that I tend to fuck in the night as well but that's beside the point. I am at my most creative at that time onwards and am at my most fervent for anything.

Unfortunately I know I have to sleep soon but I can't. And so the cycle will continue. I "force" myself to sleep "early", wake up all tired and grumpy and "promising" to "sleep early" later, which of course again never happens. Consequently I tend to hibernate all throughout the weekends making up for the lost sleep though it does not work this way at all.

I tried sleeping pills, camomile tea, hot milk, exercise... blah blah blah. I just can't, My body clock simply just prefers the night although interestingly enough, I can't really sleep while the sun is up.

My mum always give me tons of snide remarks over my sleeping habits. ALL my boyfriends save Mr Big, including Mr ICC gives me hell over it, and for some reason, makes it their personal crusade to convert me into a lark if not a diurnal person. For a while I can do that before I get irritated and blow up. I know they mean well and all but come on... just what is so bad about being night owls?? Other than the fact that I don't have enough sleep DUE TO society's diurnal phases, what is so negative about owls that people keep persistently want to "change" you?

It's like saying most people are straight, and you're gay so you should change! What the eff?? So yes I want to know what's with the bad press about owls?? Mr ICC gets pretty annoyed if I tell him I sleep at 2am, and on weekends 4-5am. My exes all get prissy about it too, and I have just about had it up to here.





I love the night. It's quiet, cold and just soothing. It's no co-incidence also that I prefer walking piglet_2005 at hours of 1am onwards as well when I don't see people. In fact I tend to get annoyed if I see people walking around at that time, and I mean real people and not the ghostly folks that I see!

Everyone tells me the same flake I have been hearing for the past decade. Nocturnal is no good, it's unhealthy, people should sleep in the night blah blah blah blah blah blah!! ARGH!!! It's so getting onto my nerves, and now Mr ICC is too seeing it as his personal quest to get me to sleep early.

/berserks




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thisisdavid
Feb. 24th, 2012 04:49 am (UTC)
Guess I'm an owl as well. I don't sleep much. Go to sleep around 2 or 3am and wake up around 9. I would go to sleep earlier if I worked earlier though.
I'm not usually irritable in the morning though. Just quiet.
thisisdavid
Feb. 24th, 2012 04:50 am (UTC)
Fuck other people. We are owls and proud! LOL!
seaweeds
Feb. 24th, 2012 08:28 am (UTC)
*sigh* .. I so hear u ..
jurassicsnark
Feb. 24th, 2012 10:46 am (UTC)
You can't 'convert' an owl. The urge to stay awake during the night is genetic, not a choice. My mother's side of the family are all owls.

I'm currently taking sleeping pills. After ten years of suffering like you are (horrid mornings after very little sleep and being unable to eat), I knew I had to do something. Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't, but I'm getting more sleep than I would without them. It's too bad they don't work for you.

I kept hoping for the longest time that I'd find some night shift job somewhere, but no such luck.

Whatever the case, don't let anyone give you grief. If they have a problem with you being nocturnal, tell them to talk to a sleep specialist.
chrishansenhome
Feb. 24th, 2012 10:50 am (UTC)
Whatever works for you is fine. Go for it. I kind of like the early morning hours between midnight and 2 am, but I'm enough of a lark that I find it difficult to stay awake and aware for them.
xiaogou
Feb. 24th, 2012 06:19 pm (UTC)
I normally sleep around 2+am and wake up around 8+am on work days. Try to sleep in multiples of 1.5hours because that's the typical duration of a sleep cycle. If you enter the next cycle and then your alarm clock wakes you up, you'll be very grumpy. But if you wake up at the end of the cycle, then you will not feel sleepy. This even works on 4.5 hours sleep, so if I go too far past my 2+am bedtime, I stay up until about 3.15 and then go to sleep (to wake up at 8am).

I also try to take a 30-40min nap in the afternoon, after lunch. It's a lot more efficient, because you get two rested periods (in the morning and after your nap) to dedicate to your work. If you just stay awake from morning all the way till evening, by 4 or 5 pm mental fatigue would have set in and you tend to end up making more mistakes.
ceddric
Feb. 25th, 2012 02:18 am (UTC)
As much as i hate it, i am a lark. I can never sleep in on weekends. the moment its light, i am up. I might find myself waking up even as early as 5am, especially on work days, and i wake up quite naturally. And by the time its 9 or 10pm, i am a zombie. Sigh.

Hmmm. As for you, have you considered getting a job working on foreign markets on the other side of the world? Then you can work nights, and not wake up at 7am. :p
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